God's vesselStanding on the shore and looking backAt churning waters spitting foam and saltRoaring a promise of destructionAnd sitting gently in the crashing wavesA ship; ever afloat and untouchedGlowing with a soft warm lightVague painful memories of half drowningAnd being picked up by an unseen handRescued by an unknown, unmanned vesselNow, safe on the shore with a path up aheadWith no way to tell where it leadsSuch a relief to be guided through lifeIt's so great to see you happyIt must have hurt real bad; watching me drownWith vacant eyes proving help a lost causeAnd it feels so good to smile againFor real this time; not some silly showIt feels so good to feel the sun shine
cant move cant breathelost in a turmoil of feelingsgasping for air; unable to breathecraving something to eat but knowingit would all be for naughttrapped in a maze of emotionwhen the only thing i needis the one person who doesn't trust mepleading for an escapedying here in empty darknessholding onto the one thing i have leftthe one thing keeping me alivethe one person i must let gowhy can't i move? why can't i breathe?why is it all disappearing?...why don't you trust me, love?i'm not leaving, not yet
Choose wrongSoaked in bitter tears of defeatI know things are going to endAnd not stay undecidedLike they have for so longSo I'll apologise in advanceI don't want to make you crySweetheart I'm so sorryIt just won't work out this wayI just wish I could buy that one-way ticketFly away so far to somewhere elseEscape this tangled mess once againAnd be happy... like I always wantedBut I can't and I need to chooseWho to destroy for my useless sakeAnd I'll apologise in advanceBecause I haven't chosen right
Of bird's featherLie in a bed of birds' featherCan't move; can't breatheWired and roped togetherNothing ahead but blackSit in the corner of this dark roomWaiting for a final chanceTo run away and assumeThat no-one will ever knowStand atop a skyscraper highInches from the edgeAir beckons; come leap and flyAway from this big messLie in a bed of bird's featherCan't move; can't breatheFallen away with bones pieced togetherNothing around but black
Cold steel tearsMe and grey clouds share the rainWith choking coughs and blurry eyesSilent, alone; broke once againShaking in the warmth of a stormClip away claws from fingers' endWon't use them to hurt anymoreInstead steel blades cut and rendSlices on fingertips burnIsn't it odd how the cold metal calmsAnd dries out my face for a whileEcho in my head; sad songs and psalmsOnly to bring out the darkness inside
Who i really amToday;a day of discoverywhere everything turned out just rightand I somehow managed to sleep until midday n_nWoke up this afternoonand saw in the mirrorblack-eyed and sleep deprivedSomeone else...the beautiful person people keep telling me I ambut I'd never believed themA part of me woke laterwhen presented with broken glassa rainbow of shattered shardsWakened the artist in meWeird, putting imagination into physical form for onceNow I think I need a hearing checkfor something about my voice is differentSinging my favourite songs todayI heard the singer I've always wished to beAlmost like it wasn't my voiceAnd it's so good to knowThat I'm more than useless.
Turn this life aroundSpin around and around the roomColoured lights blur into oneWhen laughter rings a melodyAnd sweet feeling comes to bloomMusic fills the room with soundBut is lost in this crazy magicDo away with those tears and danceEmbrace this life, turn yours around---Sit alone in a corner of this roomEverything has come undoneHolding onto a faded memoryEach shadow laced dark with gloomFloods of tears and happiness drownedIn seas of lies and deceitful tricksFairytale endings have no chanceForget this life, please turn mine around
I'm not an angelYou call me an angelAngels are the beings of perfection, yetI am only perfect at making mistakesAngels come to symbol a miracleFor many I am a beacon of misfortuneAngels have wings of a feathery whiteNow are borrowed, tattered and stainedYou say that deep down I'm beautifulSorry hon, but if you could see the mess I really amYou would realise I wear a maskIt covers my soul, my mind, my heartHiding me behind the person I wanted to beI left it there and forgot it existedAnd now I try so hard to tear it downYou say you love meNot that I won't believe you, butI can't help but wonderWhy me?Of all the other clueless girls in the worldWhen I'm the most likely to hurt youAnd least likely to know which road I am takingBut that doesn't matter, forI am easier to fix than two broken hearts