On disjointed linesWeeks of lying and pretendingA monotone mask of greyActing while slowly falling apartSuch a large price to payA child who's toy was takenWho cried and tantrumed and foughtFate's hand is cruel and fastIn the end it was all for naughtHead filled with haunting thoughtsEvery one sending fresh painMusic cut off the outside worldDidn't want to be alone againThis light shines on foreverAll must sleep sometime in lifeDarkness comes and keeps firm holdEverything never quite enoughPen on paper, patterns of inkPrint a heart on disjointed linesThree words scattered on the pageSmall words speaking both our minds
ArgumentWhat is it about this conversationThat makes me shiver despite summer heatI hear you arguing with frustrationArguing against everything I believeI try to tune out, let my family speakBut harsh words flood in and hurt meHiding this empty feeling, makes me feel weakThey can't read me like my friends canListen and discover rotten fruits of my mistakeA choice I made separates me from familyHate my beliefs if that's the road you takeI didn't know God was forbidden hereYour argument is tearing me up slowlyEvery word accompanied by stabbing painI know silent tears won't betray meMy family never notice them anywayWalk up to my room, you think I'm fineDon't expect comfort from you anymoreNo sleep comes as I lay here dyingBut I'm not alone, Lord watch over me
DreamHow did you not realise, dear self,That you were asleep and simply dreaming?Was it because he was there?Was it because your mind was creatingA failed, faded copy of that buzzing?Why couldn't you work out whyYour knees wouldn't hold you up?You bloody faceplanted into the ground, dear.Your mind must be terribly messed-up,To not notice it didn't even hurt.What else did your numbed mind not register?Interesting first day of grade ten it was,At your primary school.It didn't even look right, but of courseYou picked up that part just fine.So I watched you jump awake this morning,Open your eyes to realize it was a dream,That four weeks hadn't passed overnight,It never happened, although it seemedAs real as these past few days of your life.
20 metres tallIt's such a weird feelingBeing twenty metres in the airWith no safety rope to catch meYet, I'm not scared of fallingFeel the branches sway gentlyNone thicker than my wristI'd be a horrible dead messIf I were to fall accidentallyLittle birds keep staring at meI shouldn't be here, I don't have wingsBut I feel free like I'm flyingThis is where I'm meant to beIf it wasn't for gravity I'd sleep hereAt peace with all the worldBut trees aren't meant for peopleSo society will watch and fearFear the crack of breaking woodMy high-pitched scream as I fallPlummet toward the concrete groundLife reaching an end at childhoodBut that won't happen to me, I knowI've more than been there all beforeAn unbreakable, irrational daredevilLife doesn't want to let me go
RevengeShe can't be dead.She just can't be.All I could think, all I could feel,She's dead...Tremors shake my wiry frameFluffy black fur bristling with rageOne-set mind bent on killingKilling the one to blameRun, run through the nightRun 'till I starve to deathRazor teeth await his fleshClawed paws eager to fightHe killed her, now he must payNose follows his tainted scentThere he waits by the riverFor weeks I've chased this dayNothing matters now I've got himSnapping jaws on bleeding throatsPowerful kicks to bruise and breakSnarling, I tear him limb from limbHis battered body breathes no moreNow my voice echoes in the darkSinging a story of loss and revengeAnd a death to even the scoreShe can't be dead.She just can't be.He killed her, he killed her and now what?Now, he's dead...
Man's fearListen to the beating heart of the earthCan't you hear it?Mother nature is cryingCrying tears of betrayalFor we, the people, have watched her dyingWe are her masterpiece, the perfect designBut we let her downIntelligent and driven by greedFighting, destroyingActions causing our creator to bleedInteresting enough is our weaknessFear of one thingOne thing gives life a sparkWe rule over allBut this simple thing keeps us in the darkIt drives us to our kneesMakes us blind despite our powerKilling us slowly with it's songA sweet song of lifeSung by mother nature's voiceBut what such thing is so pleasantly painfulThat people fear it so?Love
A pin and threadSee my life like a piece of fabric; I let it rip and tearPeople have tried and people have failedTo help me repair this mess I've made of me, myself and INo one else was smart enough to give me a pin and threadWhat I was to do with this gift I did not knowI let it cut this cloth to ribbons, break it beyond repairI struggled on and on while you taught me how to sewTo fix these frayed edges, fix these splits and cutsBut see, you wouldn't let me practise on my own pieceI didn't know it was yours I was making these holes inAll these mistakes have made a real big messAnd string to sew with always runs out eventuallyMaking my life-thread is an endless task for meWoven from a mix of cheap and priceless fibresI have learnt the hard way that some patching won't lastBut I managed found one that always will, always hasSo fate took my hand and is helping me even nowUnpick the errors and do it right this timeWith a tune to sing to, with a road to lead meSew together the holes lif
I'm sorry...Mum I'm so sorryI'm sorry I made you cryI shouldn't have run awayI know you love me, you always have and I've never thought otherwiseDad I made a mistakeI shouldn't have hit youI know it didn't hurt butIt must have hurt a lot when I screamed at you and ran out the doorI should have answered the first phone callI'm glad you didn't ring the policeI was scared... so very scared....Being a teenager is horrible, hormones make a mess of everythingNow my eyes are raw from cryingMy arms are covered in bug bitesNo sleep for me tonightI'm still your little girl, I just can't do this on my own
I'm not lonely anymoreWeeks 'till I see you againA long time until thenBut it won't matter becauseI'm not lonely anymoreYou've not been replacedThe emptyness has been facedI can enjoy my holidays nowI'm not lonely anymoreMy mind has built up wallsNow you barely exist at allI can't help but not miss youI'm not lonely anymoreWithout you I'm not aloneA bond with another has grownI refuse to betray you, butI'm not lonely anymoreAnd teddy bears don't have the vitalityTo cater for this hole inside meI can't help but lie when I sayI'm not lonely anymore